My musings on LIFE!

Throughout the day-to-day turmoil of life, dealing with the boring routines as well as the unexpected mini-crisis situations, I sometimes feel a little deflated and catch myself thinking "there must be something more than this!” Unfortunately I'm not one of those people who can take pleasure in the mundane aspects of life like having a tidy home - I mean, how long does a house stay tidy with a 4 year old child running amuck? I’d much rather be having some big adventure, meeting new people, getting up to mischief and generally having a riot…


My life's circumstances are such that I cannot gallivant around willy-nilly though and quite often feel a little restricted - I'm a single woman responsible for a wonderful 4 year old boy, and work extremely hard just to provide a basic but comfortable lifestyle for my little family of 2. As a person I'm quite skittish - I love new experiences and prefer to be out and about but nights out and socialising are few and far between and I think it shows when I am around people, after all, socialising is a skill - when you get a little out of practice, it often shows! Sufficed to say, I now find myself having to consciously cap the psycho babble and calm the inner child who wants to pack as much reckless fun into every nanosecond of her existence…


Even though I am a single mother, I honestly wouldn't have it any other way - at least until someone pretty spectacularly special enters my life anyway. Technically I have only been a single parent for a few months, but I feel liberated in many ways - my relationship with my son has become more enriched, our house has become the loving home I always craved and I know I have what it takes to be a good mother, instead of constantly doubting myself and worrying about my relationship. I’m focussed, driven and have a high desire to succeed in whatever I do. Combine these attributes with a kind loving nature, a dollop of quirkiness and a sprinkle of nuts, and you get a pretty effective family environment that works!

So, today I am being thankful for all I have – the challenges and limitations as well as the reckless self-indulgent moments. My life is a million miles away from what I had foreseen 10 years ago, but decisions were made, whether right or wrong, and the path deviated from the dream. I have developed as a person in so many ways, realising my strengths and putting them to good use. I used to be painfully shy and insecure. I still have that element hidden inside, but on the whole, I now feel more confident about who I am and where I’m going. Someone from my past always told me they were going to succeed no matter what and adopted a very hard, clinical approach to life which included disregarding others feelings. I’m happy to reach my goals whilst maintaining my core values – I’m not a hard ass, bitch of steel. I’m soft, I’m caring, will do pretty much anything for anyone in order to help out, and if that means that my road to success becomes a little slower, I don’t mind, because at least I’ll have some good friends and worthwhile experiences along the way.

Quote for the day:
I think everybody should get rich and famous and do everything they ever dreamed of so they can see that it's not the answer. ~Jim Carrey

Quote for my life:
My life has a superb cast but I can't figure out the plot. ~Ashleigh Brilliant

Cynical ranting quote from someone who's obviously having a bad day:
Life... is like a box of chocolates - a cheap, thoughtless, perfunctory gift that no one ever asks for, unreturnable because all you get back is another box of chocolates. So, you're stuck with mostly indefinable whipped mint crap, mindlessly wolfed down when there's nothing else to eat while you're watching the game. Sure, once in a while you get a peanut butter cup or an English toffee but it's gone too fast and the taste is fleeting. In the end, you are left with nothing but broken bits filled with hardened jelly and teeth-shattering nuts, which, if you are desperate enough to eat, leaves nothing but an empty box of useless brown paper. ~The X-Files


Love it!  Peace out!!!   ;o)